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Post by ghosties on Jul 29, 2020 16:00:11 GMT
Hello everyone (again!) this is going to be my accountability thread. I'm going to post as often as possible, so hopefully we see a positive trend in this.
This first segment of mine is going to run from now until December 4th (end of my fall semester), and the goal is to lose 65lbs (including what I have lost currently). This will put me right above my third to last gw of 130lbs.
I'm going to keep track of the total lost this segment over cw bc I like the progress numbers themselves and I'm super weird haha.
My plan for now is to eat only once every 24-48 hours. I have planned days where I will not be doing this (a vacation where I'll be with my sus best friend) and thanksgiving to an extent. It's like OMAD but...less? Anyways. During 5/7 days I'm allowed a max of 450 cal via drinks, I drink a matcha latte pretty much every morning (vanilla almond milk + culinary grade matcha) and usually 2 kickstarts (160 cal). Sometimes Mio (25 cal at most.) My meals will be capped at 800 calories as well. The days I do eat I will be doing either kickboxing or dance, or both.
Current progress as of 07/31/2020: 7/65
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Post by lio on Jul 29, 2020 21:33:15 GMT
Following! Good luck!
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Post by ghosties on Jul 30, 2020 0:33:52 GMT
I really wish I could find my lax tea so I can get an accurate weight before I move...ugh.
20 hours into my fast. I keep forgetting I need to drink more water while fasting lmao.
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Post by ghosties on Jul 30, 2020 2:55:27 GMT
total intake for the day: 881 Feeling disgusting. Starting another 24 hour fasting + packing and cleaning to burn more cal.
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Post by ghosties on Jul 31, 2020 14:00:12 GMT
Uncertain on my intake yesterday, however I down down another 2lbs.
7/65.
We're moving today and I'm not feeling good so I'm going to have lunch today to see if I feel better. It'll be something small/light, probably a salad. Tonight we plan on getting curry (I'll be getting green eggplant curry) and after that I will resume my regular fasting schedule.
My roommates (at least from what I saw FB stalking them like the terrible person I am) are like..athletic??? And I'm overweight just barely out of the obese classification, so that's just terrible. I'm sure they're going to judge everything I do lol. At least it's more triggering for me. We did get a coffee machine and most of our groceries yesterday, and it'll be super easy for me to restrict in front of my best friend. Idk how long I can get away with fasting, but I'm sure gonna try to fast as much as possible without raising suspicion.
I will be losing the full 65lbs by december, nothing will stop me.
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Post by lio on Jul 31, 2020 21:02:37 GMT
Uncertain on my intake yesterday, however I down down another 2lbs. 7/65. We're moving today and I'm not feeling good so I'm going to have lunch today to see if I feel better. It'll be something small/light, probably a salad. Tonight we plan on getting curry (I'll be getting green eggplant curry) and after that I will resume my regular fasting schedule. My roommates (at least from what I saw FB stalking them like the terrible person I am) are like..athletic??? And I'm overweight just barely out of the obese classification, so that's just terrible. I'm sure they're going to judge everything I do lol. At least it's more triggering for me. We did get a coffee machine and most of our groceries yesterday, and it'll be super easy for me to restrict in front of my best friend. Idk how long I can get away with fasting, but I'm sure gonna try to fast as much as possible without raising suspicion. I will be losing the full 65lbs by december, nothing will stop me. That's good you're giving your body a little break. Moving is tough, you've gotta have some energy for it!
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Post by ghosties on Aug 11, 2020 15:18:16 GMT
Wow! It's been a minute since I updated this, so mass update!
We are officially moved in and kind of just finalizing stuff right now. My diet got out of control for a minute but we back. Scale is showing a weight gain rn but I'm also about to start my period and I'm extremely bloated. I'm going to start fasting again today after lunch with my coworkers, I think my standard fasts will be lunch - breakfast the following day. I'll max myself at 800 cal for lunch and 200 cal for my coffees in the morning. I got something similar to sweet sweat over the weekend, and it will be here today when I get off work. Hopefully I'll be seeing some killer progress over the next few weeks!
I looked into just how much I have going on for school this semester, and the good news is I have a TON of work to do. One of my finals is straight up 6 pages of writing. I also have two exams due next week, and school starts next week. Like holy shit. But you know what that means, no eating for me! I'm going to buy brain supplements alongside a mood supplement and a sleep supplement. I meet with my psych on the 24th, so hopefully, just hopefully, I can get something along the lines of adderall prescribed. Might not be too hard since I'm fat as hell and can't focus worth anything and I have SO MUCH reading this semester.
(also I started talking to a few guys??? wow, what am i doing)
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Post by ghosties on Aug 26, 2020 7:35:21 GMT
Okay, bit of an update.
I *finally* saw my psych and therapist. I'm back on meds, mainly lamictal and prazosin. Neither are suppose to impact weight though. I ended up dropping two classes because I think I wanna do Psychology but focus my practice more on art/spirituality type stuff??? Idk I'm so confused.
Not eating is easy at my apartment. Managed to skip dinner with literally no comments. Just stayed in my room all night. I'm thinking about posting my weight on here since I'm considered obese and can use the motivation from you guys <3 I know you guys have my back on this. I'm down 8lbs finally, but I've upped my water intake so I'm holding onto water until my body is used to having more water. I'm gonna start going on walks at the park near my house, and since I'm quitting vaping and moving to an essential oil pen I might start running once the smoke clears up from all the fires going on. I WILL lose 50lbs by December. Hopefully more. I have 3 months to do it. It's only 17ish lbs per month, which is 4lbs a week pretty much once I drop water weight. I cannot wait for squash season, that stuff is so low cal and I can cover up any suspicions with it.
Well, thats all for now that I can think of, I'm going to be significantly more active now that my classes are more manageable. Gonna try to take another day off during the week to study more and that will be a mandatory liquid fasting day. I'll be ordering memory supplements probably tonight so they're here decently quickly.
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Post by ghosties on Aug 28, 2020 5:49:24 GMT
Had sushi tonight with my best friend. a black dragon roll, eel nigiri, and a Hawaiian roll. feeling disgusting even tho it was over 2 hours ago. gonna fast for 24 hours, will probably have spaghetti squash or rice cakes and cucumber w/ watermelon tomorrow once I break it.
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Post by ghosties on Sept 4, 2020 5:15:00 GMT
Back on track. Around 900 cal today. It's getting easier to ignore food. Slowly increasing my water intake, hopefully I stop retaining water, granted it's only around 2lbs now. Hoping my first goal weight is fast approaching now. I need to get better at sleeping.
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Post by ghosties on Sept 4, 2020 5:21:46 GMT
Oh, I guess I could give a life update:
I'm falling behind in school. I just can't concentrate anymore. Probably going back to my OTC adderall mix. My mental health is tanking fast. Idk if it's the meds and I just to push on, or if they haven't taken effect yet. Either way, I'm not okay. I'm trying to be more social to see if it helps, I've been hanging out with some friends from high school. I decided to make a tinder too, not like I'm even remotely interested in sex or anything like hooking up.
Work is still some how going okay though. It's weird. Pretty sure my roommates hate me too, so I stay in my room either drawing or watching youtube videos/listening to music or dancing. I wish my life was more interesting. I kind of just want someone to care about me and actually show it. My online friends and some of my IRLs have been pretty sweet towards me lately, but I know it's only because they feel sorry for me since I recently opened up about my mental health and how it's spiraling. I think about suicide a lot but I don't think I'll go through with any attempts or anything because I do want to graduate and some day maybe be a semi-interesting person with a life. I feel so voidlike anymore. I don't want to exist, but I have to. maybe I'll get better if I'm skinny lmao.
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